Descent into Madness
It has come to my attention that quite a few non-photographically orientated people are reading the blog, which is excellent news! However in the process of pushing my boundaries as a model, I am simultaneously horrifying my father-in-law, friends and non-photographic readers, all of whom clearly think I have lost my mind.
Please note, although you have seen me as a quiet, conservative, repressed and intelligent accountant and mother, like everyone there is more to me than meets the eye. Do you really think that Rich would have married such a staid and boring old fart, let alone stay with her ? That’s not what I am like at all. The external costume that I put on of the professional, demure, Laura Ashley country-type yummy mummy is merely a mask, one which I have worn for far too long, to the extent that it stifled the real person underneath. Modelling is letting me push my boundaries and explore “the real me”.
My mother-in-law thinks Rich has corrupted me utterly and that I’m doing increasingly desperate things to save my marriage, and prevent Rich running off with a young fluffy model. This judgement is despite me constantly trying to explain that Rich has no intention of doing any such thing, and that he knows I am doing this to explore my inner psyche. We come up with ideas for the shoots together. I am not being coerced or corrupted at all (accountancy corrupted me 15 years ago - it was downhill from then on!)
Richard and I are not perverts, despite this is what the neighbours think, and I have not lost my marbles, nor am I having any kind of nervous breakdown.
Is this a mid-life crisis because I am turning 40 next year ? If it is, it’s a helluva lot of fun and frankly I should have done this years ago!
Will this post make any difference and reassure people that we are coherent, sane and operating to the highest possible ethical standards?
Er, no, I doubt it. As we progress deeper into ourselves and our aspirations to art, we may be pushing our own boundaries, but I can guarantee we are way outside the personal comfort zones of most of our friends and family.
Please note, although you have seen me as a quiet, conservative, repressed and intelligent accountant and mother, like everyone there is more to me than meets the eye. Do you really think that Rich would have married such a staid and boring old fart, let alone stay with her ? That’s not what I am like at all. The external costume that I put on of the professional, demure, Laura Ashley country-type yummy mummy is merely a mask, one which I have worn for far too long, to the extent that it stifled the real person underneath. Modelling is letting me push my boundaries and explore “the real me”.
My mother-in-law thinks Rich has corrupted me utterly and that I’m doing increasingly desperate things to save my marriage, and prevent Rich running off with a young fluffy model. This judgement is despite me constantly trying to explain that Rich has no intention of doing any such thing, and that he knows I am doing this to explore my inner psyche. We come up with ideas for the shoots together. I am not being coerced or corrupted at all (accountancy corrupted me 15 years ago - it was downhill from then on!)
Richard and I are not perverts, despite this is what the neighbours think, and I have not lost my marbles, nor am I having any kind of nervous breakdown.
Is this a mid-life crisis because I am turning 40 next year ? If it is, it’s a helluva lot of fun and frankly I should have done this years ago!
Will this post make any difference and reassure people that we are coherent, sane and operating to the highest possible ethical standards?
Er, no, I doubt it. As we progress deeper into ourselves and our aspirations to art, we may be pushing our own boundaries, but I can guarantee we are way outside the personal comfort zones of most of our friends and family.
posted by Lin at 1:22 PM
1 Comments:
Does get folks thinking, doesn't it?
It's easier to say this than to do it, but one has to get past caring too much about what others think, and proceed past comfortable cultural norms.
In truth, I'm not sure you and Richard can do that yet. Fetish might be a destination (and should be explored), but it might just be a whistle stop on the way to somewhere else. There isn't a real shortage of fetish imagery in any case. Most is very close to our cultural center.
My mother thinks my models should wear more clothes. Sorry Mom, but that's not an interesting critique. Where I go isn't determined by where I came from. At least not too much.
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